Haha, I look like the lazy bummer out of…

Haha, I look like the lazy bummer out of the four, but I’ve been MIA because I’ve been in Shanghai for the past 2.5 months where wordpress and blogspot have been BLOCKED. Will update later with pictures from the Expo, promise …

As for being back, I’m incredibly excited to be reunited with my friends, but also feeling weird about being back. After living in a place where you’re the majority, where you’re not faced with institutionalized racism, you get used to the comfort. Yes, China has it’s problems, I’m not dismissing them, but they’re not my personal torments. Coming through the airport was like everything was being thrown back in my face. Customs signs in Detroit said U.S. Citizens/Resident Alien. Great, Resident Alien … makes you feel all warm and fuzzy inside doesn’t it? And when you walk up to the counter, the lady working there asks you if you’ve lived in NY your entire life and you want to scream a “Yes, I am a born and raised goddamned AMERICAN” instead of the cheerful yes your mum chirps out. But you keep it bottled inside because A. blowing up in an international airport is a really stupid idea and B. you’re telling yourself that you’re just being overly sensitive. And as much as you’ve missed all of your friends, you know it’s been a good 2.5 months, returning to the motherland, to the quiet house where you can get some peace of mind and when you walk outside, you actually feel like someone normal for once.